A Calendar of Wisdom: July 3

“A person is enslaved to the extent he believes that his life has only a physical beginning.”

That any person who has forgotten their immortal soul is enslaved. If you believe that you were nothing before and will be nothing after? I can’t see any evidence for either case. All I know is that I feel that I am more than just a physical presence, even if I’m not quite sure what that means.

When I started to unmask, my biggest fear was that there would be nothing behind the mask. Masking had shown that personality is a construct, not inherent. So who would I be when the mask was gone? I was really afraid that the answer would be nothing, and that in order to move on, I’d have to construct a new personality, a new mask.

So I was pleasantly surprised to discover that there is bedrock, that there are parts of me that really are me. That’s been wonderful. It was me from when I was a kid, from when I first put on the mask, so emotionally I had a lot of growing to do, very quickly and somewhat painfully, to get to somewhat functioning adult, but this time, I could do it, because I knew who I was, I knew what I was and I knew now that I had to figure out how to do it by myself and not by trying to learn from others because I was wired differently.

Excerpt From
A Calendar of Wisdom by Leo Tolstoy