Weary To My Bones

I want to be playing a game. I'm tired, a little groggy, a little drunk, maybe a little sick. It's been a busy week at work. It's been a busy week taking care of kids, a house, a cat, a spouse. I want to be playing a game, but booting up the console feels like too much work. I'd have to get up off the bed, and the cat looks awfully comfortable sleeping at my side. I don't want to read any more news, any more Twitter, any more Reddit. I want to be playing a game.

My current jam is Fallout 76. I don't even want to get into it. Unraveling the way this game consumed me the last couple of months would take more wattage than my brain can muster at the moment. Let's just say I finally found the deep play game I was looking for, in a title I had written off late last year. Needless to say, it's not a casual thing. The spouse will be home soon and then we'll probably head towards bed, maybe watch something before we turn out the lights. I don't know how much time I have to fill, but 76 takes time.

I want to play a game on this iPad, this beautiful, wonderful machine, the greatest computer I've ever owned, and I've been typing words on computer screens for years and years now. I know my machines. But I haven't found a game that has really grabbed me here. Games made for mobile seem to relish being in the shallow end, fleeting moments of fun to pick up and put down. I do have a couple of chess games going, but making three moves will eat up all of a minute, and then I'll be right back to where I was, sitting here on the bed next to sleeping cat, slowly finishing this last beer, each sip slightly warmer than the last.

My mind needs something to do, something to chew on. It never sits still. I'm weary to my bones but I'm also bored, and there is nothing worse than being bored, nothing worse than wanting to do something and have no idea what that thing should be. I want to be playing a game because I have to be conscious, it's too early to go to bed and I'm not that tired. Besides, the cat snores.

I guess looking for a game on the iPad will give me something to do. I'll let you know what I find.